| back on my lj kick again. i'm the worse with updating this thing. its funny because i've had this since freshman year of high school. i was looking over really old entries, boy did they make me laugh.
anyways.
life. this is my summer totally on my own. im living in kalamazoo and so far, this has definetly been one of the best summers i've had. of course i miss my family, work, etc about farmington hills, but being away has been real good. all my friends [minus molly] from school are here for the summer so its just a very laid back kind of summer. working on weekends and a couple times during the week. i can honestly say life is good.
today as spent at the beach with jason and chris. so exhausted from that. we were suppose to do a bonfire tonight too, until it started raining, boo.
i am currently talking to a boy i dont even know. justin told me he had a friend in a band on friday night, which of course caught my interest. he told me a little about his friend, and then showed me a picture. thought he was cute, so justin talked to his friend [named matt], and matt wanted me to text him. i did, and since then we've been just chit chatting via text and facebook. we have yet to still speak on the phone, and well, meet, but talking it always nice. hes in a band, and has a show in kalamazoo at the end of summer, he told me today he wanted to make sure i could make it. he also wants to meet up at warped tour. hes from Illinois, we'll what happens. if i do say so myself, he has made quite the effort. he has made some sort of contact with me everyday since we started texting [sounds so juvenile but whatever]
i am vowing to use this thing more often now. hopefully i can keep up :)
peace!
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| alllllright.
so thursday night, work was slow. and the managers were suprisngly super nice to me, weird. but it was good. came home after, and then me and molly headed to chad and tims. it was chill, we jus smoked some hookah and hung out.
friday woke up hoping my class would be canceled, unfortunately not. but its only a 50 min class, so went by quick. went to the gym, came home and napped a little, and then went to work. which was soo friggin busy, and i burned myself. but the customers kept tipping the cooks so i made like 5 bucks. then came home, showered. went down to tims and then we went to dannys place for a party. it was actually sweet, we made people tell us an interesting fact about themselves. then tim and chad left so i jus stayed with danny and his room mate, and fights ended up happening and cops showed up and shit so we jus left and walked back to their place in the friggin cold. got back jus stayed up and talked for a lil and jus crraaaaashed.
then woke up and they made me breakfast which i thought was the cutest thing ever. i was still tired as shit though so i didnt even eat. then danny drove me home. just got back from grocery shopping with molly. thank god i had a 25 doller gift card to walmart, cuz if not i woulda spent 50 bucks. yeh i eat alot.
sooo quick nap before work!
then martinis tonight :) | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
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| so i am going to copy amanda and try to write in this thing everyday!!
should be fun :)
so.
molly called me at about 8:30 this morning to pick her up from Tuffys, she was having car issues, and problem ended up costing her 400 bucks. so i went to my car, and it had frost on the inside, just shows how fuckin cold it is. picked molly up and we stopped to get coffee. got back to the apt just in time to change and get ready for class.
drove to class, and suprisingly found a parking spot right away, as opposed to tuesday when i had to battle for spot, and got flipped off when i won :) then in marketing, we got our teams for the big marketing project. i knew one guy already, and then seth kriztman was assigned to be in my group too, but he wasnt there today. im the only girl in the group so the professor kept apologizing to me but to be honest i really dont care..i like working with guys better. i like my group too..their cool guys. then after class i just went to the study lounge and read until 1, and then went to go see my academic advisor to apply to the business college. He said I was right on schedule with everything, ill be taking upper level courses in the fall. kinda exciting.
so then on my drive home, it was snowing real bad and my windshield wipers wernt working. soo i thought they may be frozen. i ran into to get hotwater to dump on them and somehow managed to lock my keys in my car with it running. I called AAA and they were sending someone to unlock my doors for me..so im waiting.
emily hayes wrote on my fb wall. we have a class together so now i guess she wants to be friends again after what [yet again] a bitch she was in the beginning of the year. i just looked through old fb messages i sent people and old lj posts of when i was going through my issues with them, i cant believe how much i put up with. i feel like these days i would prob stand up for myself more.
oh yesterday i had my rock music genisus class, which i love. i sat next to this girl danelle who i met last year, and a couple times this year i've seen her, and found out shes friends with john. somehow she brought him up, and we jus got to talking, and she was telling me all about her friends who want him and how one friend was trying to "get in his pants but failed". all i could do is laugh, i didnt say anything. just when i start to forget him, he always somehow comes back. i dont care, its just weird.
work 5-9 later, then hopefully hanging out with chad, tim, and martini after.
one more thing..FUUUUCK winter. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| “Nothing in this world that’s worth having comes easy”
i love scrubs. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| so as much as i've probably have said this before
i really did have an amazing freshman year of college.
i was just looking through all my pictures, and just thinking of all the friends i made, and just all the new experiences i've had [whether good or bad]. pretty life changing
its been a nice summer, but i cant wait to go back. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i've been listening to mayday parade alot lately, alot more than usual.
and i can honestly say they songs are the soundtrack to my life
i should start posting more often | | comments: Leave a comment |
| "I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade. "
--from the movie "The Holiday" | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| i hate that you ignored my message
and that you havnt tried to contact me
i hate you hit on my room mate
and that you made out with a girl right in front of me
i hate your as non confrontational as i am
i hate how confused you were
and that i wasnt as honest with you as i should of been
i hate that i miss you right now. tons. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| “What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.”
-Chuck Palahniuk | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | so reflecting back on my freshman year of college..the biggest and only thing i wish i could do differently is go back to the night of 3/14 and confront him. for some reason its eating me up inside? | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| ihjofguiofhg$$@@#$yopu690nbkltjhyejiorpu7**4768tyo7p25
im going home for the summer today | | comments: Leave a comment |
| last night was probably one of the best nights i've had here
no emily
no worrying about "whose gonna hook up with who"
no 'compition'
you know what else..there were barely any girls
just me and molly hanging out with the most chill guys ever
i loved it..and im gonna miss them like none other over the summer
me and emily delofted our beds today..and i started packing some of my clothes ): | | comments: Leave a comment |
| searching quotes today and found this one. and i totally get it
"You had me. You had me 3 months ago & you left. It has nothing to do with me, it`s about you, & it`s always about you: what you need & that you want. you know, it seems that you only want me when you can`t have me. You like the chase & that`s all. So you know what,you can have it."
-The o.c. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| by this time next week i'll be tearing down my dorm room and will be moved out by friday.
plz god. thats too soon.
i dont want to go back to the place where im no one.
here i have so many people who dont know anything about my life in high school, and therefore i have no one thinking im a "goody good" or stuck up or simply a loser. i have such great friends here. and for about 4 months i'm gonna be with out them
probably no boys for those 4 months. or partys. or anything.
not looking forward to it =[ | | comments: 9 comments or Leave a comment |
| "Sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we can finally understand for ourselves..That knowing is better than wondering, that walking is better than sleeping, and that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake..beats the hell out of never trying"
--Greys Anatomy
i love that. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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